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beetle-beep · 2 months ago

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i miss my wives <-(their old hyperfixation came back and overshadowed the current one)

#I MISS MY ROBOT WIVESSS #explodes #dragon age got my ass again #i want to write my fic and finish the ASSLOAD of wips i had going #but alas #i must play the funny fantasy game #literally feel like i'm being shipped off to war #i'll tag stuff bc i know a majority of my following is here for dca stuff #but i might get silly i fear #already wanting to do outfit line ups for my rook :(#i live in hell #beetle yapping

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xxplastic-cubexx · 3 months ago

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Hi!! Your Cherik is so good and gorgeous 🤩🤩 If you don't mind wanna try to draw some Fall of X Cherik please?

thank you so much !!

i have a couple of ideas relating to the fall of x period specifically since theres. A Lot i wanna play with, so i hope this lil thing may be a satisfactory start :]]

and the obligatory bonus:

#xmen #xmen comics #fall of x #cherik #charles xavier #erik lehnsherr #erik magnus lehnsherr #max eisenhardt #professor x #magneto #snap sketches #for clarity on of this tag ramble im calling magneto max OK ok #sorry it took me a while to answer- ive been busy this week !#but yah like i said theres a lot of Fall Of X moments i wanna poke at #one i really wanted to doodle around was max's time with the shadow king from Resurrection of Magneto #the third issue is prob my fave in general if im so tbh .... but i wont prattle bout that ill go back to my previous prattle #i dont think i have a comic in mind prob just a doodle with shadow charles....#i mean if im devious enough i can def turn it into a comic but for now i just know i wanna do something with that #honestly even this moment i might revisit when i have more time to draw something. a lil better #i dont hate this its a sound start- but i THINK i wanna draw a smooch. a lil kiss. idk we'll see #cause im cheeky like that. 'will this be the last time i see you' 'girl idk we can kiss about it though' etc etc #god not to get off topic but im so curious what will happen with these two ... but thats for a diff post i guess #honestly if you guys have any runs i should read lemme know !! i just finished way of x and bar that ive just been reading the 60s issues #i have a couple on my list i wanna check out but im always excited to look into recs if yall think theyre worth it !!#but ya. thats all from me for now #my time is so finite this week i hope i can draw these sillies again soon .. i have a lot of ideas i fear #maybe i can sneak in one more doodle tonight ... <- doubtful

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llamagoddessofficial · 10 months ago

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"so be sure to forgive him ASAP." (Killer accidentally hurting his SO)

What if you don't forgive him? What if he reaches for you dramatically while pretending to grovel and you flinch? If he notices you're tense and silent, not taking your eyes off him- normally he'd love that, but you aren't looking at him lovingly, or even with fond annoyance.

You're afraid, and it's directed at him.

Killer has an alarmingly one-track mind, when it comes to you. He will continue to pester you, every single spare moment he has, with the same big smile and silly energy and loving aura, as if nothing was wrong. It doesn't matter if you're laughing at his jokes or visibly pulling away from him in terror. He keeps going.

You're still scared? More stupid jokes. More apologies. More gifts. More nudging you with his elbow and saying "hey, watch this," before he does something that makes Dust or Horror regret waking up that morning. More smiling. More casually putting his elbow on your shoulder while he's talking to someone else. He will gnaw away at your fear response to him, piece by piece, until you're desensitised and you can start to love him again.

He's a deranged little persistence hunter, addicted to the way your smile fills the huge hole he carved out of himself. He will never let you go.

#llamagines #i can imagine that after a while if youre still not receptive to him the others might step in #killer's insane overzealous devotion actively makes the other bad sanses nervous for his mental state #killer is silly and harmless and funny - until he isnt #like... they'd work both in trying to get killer to calm down and in trying to get you to warm up to him again #axe and dust would do their best to talk him down from his neurotic //i NEED to make them like me or i'll die// moods to give you some room #and nightmare would talk to you to try and solve some of those ongoing fears #bad sanses

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tropicalcontinental · 3 months ago

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After Parkour Civilization can we all collectively watch Oneshef's videos

#digital art #tropical's art #collinlock16 #art #high contrast #cw eyestrain #eye strain #oneshef #Vitriolic_red #I_AM_BIG_KEVIN #why did he name himself that #Vitriolic is the one with the shotgun #And bigkev is the green guy #Go watch Oneshef's videos btw the newest one introduced bigkev #He's just a paranormal mercenary that just so happens to have multiple clients call about Minecraft hauntings #Its all so fun and silly and good I wish Minecraft ARGs were real #Vitriolic_Red has a shotgun and she uses it to 360 noscope some entities and she lives in a world of floating islands to hand glide and #Grappling hook where ever she wants #I might as well draw Colin one of these days #Would Souler even be able to eat Colin's soul since Colin is so done with all the entities being in his world #He's not afraid of them and likes being an ass to them and pissing them off #And Souler seems to work on fear to actually get to its victims or at least that's how I think it works #Idk I'm yapping anyways go watch Oneshef #Minecraft ARGs but they call Kevin #Minecraft ARG but the main character has gun mods #minecraft arg but the protagonist is tired

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hecksee · 1 year ago

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im learning i have an intense fondness for historical gays. modern gays are good, but theres just Something about historical queers that hit my brain. bonus points if they're from the 17th-19th century.

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deoidesign · 8 months ago

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#ok finally making a post about meds #I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset #so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but #it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways #so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone #like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus #my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night #sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired #it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted #but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too #but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared #so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow #anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING #that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up #I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world #and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on #and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!

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miodiodavinci · 6 months ago

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i saw that you used to hint at oc stuff on twitter (don't ask me why im digging im looking for zola stuff lmao) why don't you post more about them?

i am simply terrified that if i post oc things online someone will steal the concept and run with it faster and better than i ever could have and then i will be devastated forever and ever

more seriously i have very little to show for any of my oc things (adhd brain making life difficult as per usual awawawawawa) and every time i've shared oc things in the past i've ended up never following up on it and it makes me feel bad and guilty so i've just convinced myself i will Never talk about my ocs until i have something substantial i can put out there

#mio answers things #anon #i'm getting a little better with making things for my ocs #on account of having friends i can actively share my brain rot with #but i still dread the feeling of posting a character and being forever haunted about never doing anything with them ever again #(echoes of custard howling in my mind)#just like how i dread having a repeat of that time in middle school #where i talked about my werecrow oc in the comments of a bigger artist's works #and they ended up making their own werecrow oc immediately after #they very much directly aligned with mine #but it got wildly popular on their account and they made a ton of art for it and i just #ended up deleting any evidence of mine because i felt so bad about it skjdfhgkldhfkgj #like i have no problem with people taking inspiration from my designs #i think it's fun seeing people design vy2s with two toned hair and kyos with pink eyes and hair pins w #but like. the thought of posting my oc and having someone run them through a blender to make their own character makes me feel. bad.#i can't articulate the specific reason Why it makes me feel bad but it does skjfghdkjfgsdhkjf #like if i finally posted theater gang stuff and then saw someone else take those concepts and make them into their own characters #i might just collapse into a pile of beef trimmings and never get up sdfkjhglksjdfg #it's silly and i don't know why my brain's like this but because of this in combination with my fear of posted oc things haunting me foreve #i simply will not be posting <3333 #(and also just that. i'm incapable of producing enough artwork to make my ocs matter in a public context i think.)#(like you breed affection for a character through familiarity)#(which you only really get by creating A Lot Of Art)#(and i cannot do that <333)#(so instead most times i post it's a few handfuls of likes)#(and that doesn't really feel worth it to my brain when i could just settle for going insane over them with my friends skjdfhgkjsdf)#i really think this last year has just taught me that i really. honestly truly prioritize the reactions and feelings of my friends #over strangers on the internet #and it feels a lot more comfortable that way w #AH

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sunsetzer · 10 months ago

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On one hand, I want a final fantasy 6 remake, because the game is criminally underrated and the amount of fan content (which is all absolutely fantastic btw) is Not Enough for my neurodivergent, hyperfixating brain.

On the other hand, that would inevitably encourage more people to join the fandom, which would be great, except it seems these days the bigger a fandom gets the more toxic it becomes, and I really like what we have going on over here in our little corner. We all just love the game and its characters and nobody fights about who should and shouldn't date who or who you shouldn't like because they're ~problematique~. Nobody's trying to make one ship morally better than another, nobody's calling anyone names or threatening to doxx people who don't agree with their opinions. It's so peaceful and I love that for us. We're just vibing. Moisturized. Unbothered. In our lane. Flourishing.

#as someone who was in an extremely toxic and chaotic fandom and lowkey still traumatized #to the point where I'm afraid to mention which fandom it was/what my ship was #i have to say #i genuinely love it here #i was nervous at first sharing my ships and headcanons but everyone is so chill i was worried for nothing #thank you to everyone I've interacted with who has made this fandom a healing experience for me #i shudder to think about what some of the people i interacted with in a previous fandom would do with ff6 #probably would take edgar's flirting at face value and call him problematic for objectifying women #instead of considering the narrative and what we know about him and the way he actually treats women #my man drinks loving and respecting women juice he's not a creep #or that weird moment with relm that admittedly made me double take before i realized what he meant #theyd have a whole campaign against him lmfao #bc those people boil characters alive until they're just a formless pile of tropes and stereotypes #and seem to disregard all positive aspects of a character they don't like which is fine #but then they go and try to force other people to think like they do and ugh #theres a lot of silly moments in the game and aspects of these characters that make them well rounded and realistically flawed at times #and i fear that would get lost in the chaos if the floodgates opened after a remake #maybe im just jaded lmao #im jaded and i have anxiety so im always thinking about The Worst Case Scenario #the collective positive spirit of the dwellers in this fandom might actually foster a positive space if more people were to come in #ff6 #my post #i was gonna say maybe this is bc we're mostly adults #but that falls flat when i remember how some of the most toxic and immature people in some fandoms are grown ass adults #who bully each other and younger fans #and some of the most mature and cool people were actually younger #maybe ff6 fans are just built different lmao #also idk how old anyone else actually is there might be teenagers here i just don't think about it a lot

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bluebellhairpin · 3 months ago

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maybe TMI but I didn't realize how pathetic my moans are.

#i don't get to really let go bc there's always someone else in the house but like #wow #ik you can someone sounds pathetic as a kink thing but #LIKE #I THINK I FEAR IT MIGHT JUSST BE TRUE FOR ME UNFORTUNATLY #anyway i'm also like two steps off passing out #bc i just had a steaming hot bath and then decided to fuck myself silly for the first time in MONTHS #bad desicion ik #but i've got fellowship of the ring on the big telly so we're so cozy rn

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arsenicflame · 7 months ago

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you know youre a little too deep in the brainrot when "would it be fucked up to be straight in the society of Heven" is a genuine thought you have had and seriously debated with yourself